As life throws itself at me

I cant help but wonder,

Are you really gonna be there?

I see you standing there

But I wonder if you see me.

I try to give you what you want

Even if hurts me in the end.

I try so hard to be there

Making you feel loved and needed

But you left anyways.

Leaving with promises that you will return,

But will I be ready when you do come back?

Can I handle knowing that this might happen again?

I look in your eyes and they mirror my emotions,

Making me feel like I am the only one that feels them.

I ask you but I try not to listen

It seems that the truth will hurt me more than a lie.

Should I try to get you back

Or give on all together on the future we might have?

Should I keep you around and try to be your friend?

Thinking and hoping that one day you will come back like you say?

I shouldn't,

I should!

I feel so split in two!


Can you give me something to hold onto

or let me go....?